Back in late April I was told that my job would be ending by August 1st. Since 2011 I had worked as a Preservationist/Community Planner for the Department of Interior on what was supposed to be a four-year term position. Unfortunately, sequestration, and other issues with the government agency that I worked for, resulted in the funding for my position being cut. So I faced the challenges of financial uncertainty and securing employment. Instead of panicking and becoming depressed, I decided to stand on my faith (in GOD) and stay positive. I also resolved to turn a “crisis-mode” period into a “change-for-the-better” period. When I was informed of my term ending I still had three months left to work. Instead of coming in everyday frowning or disgruntled, I came in everyday with a positive attitude and kept the same level of integrity and work ethic as I had when I thought I would be there to complete my four-year term. Keeping a positive attitude depends heavily upon what, and more importantly, who you have in your personal space. I’ve always believed the saying “Bad company ruins character”, and there was plenty of bad company in my office! I do fairly well at keeping negative people at bay, but during those last three months I took good stock of those individuals that were genuine and those who were negative, loved to gossip, fake, or pretentious. The later got CUT-OFF!!! I did not tolerate those types of people at all. It’s when you face trouble or adversity that you really see who your true friends or supporters are anyway. I did not even go around telling everyone that I was leaving (unless they had “a job” for me they could not help me, and didn’t need to know my business). It was business as usual and when I finished my tasks at work my work was “looking” for work. Many people were shocked by my disposition. They expected to see me slack-off or look unhappy or feel ashamed. But that is just not how I chose to handle adversity.
Well those three months came and went by. I can say that although there is still uncertainty, this has been a great period of personal growth, reflection and redirection. In the late spring I began resolving personal issues in an effort to better myself including dealing with procrastination and fear. I also revised my resume and began promoting my services as an independent contractor. I have already wrapped up one contracted project I picked up back in August. In early August I ended a lifetime of stage fright by singing in front of my church congregation as part of a small praise team. I also traveled to DC last month to reconnect with a close friend I’ve know since college. It had been 13 years since we last saw each other, yet it felt like no time had lapsed! Oh, and here is the big one! For two years I lived in an apartment above the WORST neighbors I have ever had. They were a young couple with young rowdy kids. During the day the kids were making a ridiculous amount of noise and all during the night the adult (particularly the young man) rapped, sang, yelled and played his television loudly. I had tried to work with the apartment management to resolve the noise issues but they gave me NO help. So a true friend offered her vacant house for rent!!! I now get to sleep at night!!! So, this has been a period that I am truly thankful to God for.
The personal theme I chose for this year (yes, I give each year of my life a “theme”) was Back to Love, and this has truly been a period of getting back to love, back to the basics. I got so caught up in my own selfish ambitions and wants it was getting hard to hear from God and make good, sound decisions. I am so grateful he has turned what could have and may have been meant as a time of disaster into a time of development and discovery. Peace and Blessings!